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Defining Capable.

There is no passion to be found in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living.

 

Nelson Mandela

What does it mean to live the life you are capable of living?⁠ ⁠

 

Well, what does it mean to be capable?⁠ ⁠

 

According to Merriam-Webster, to be capable is to have the attributes (such as physical or mental power), competency, and permission required for performance or accomplishment.⁠ ⁠

 

But what if we’re trying to get out from under the crushing (albeit somewhat satisfying) burden of performance and accomplishment?⁠ ⁠

 

What if performance and accomplishment aren’t even within the realm of possibility?⁠ ⁠

 

This is the topic I’ve wrestled for the last two years, both here and on my blog. How do we live an all-out life, an abundant life, a full and rich and meaningful life when we live with very real limits?⁠ ⁠

 

It’s a question I’m still trying to answer.⁠ ⁠

But here’s what I’ve learned so far:⁠ ⁠

 

1. I had to grieve what was lost before I could move on.⁠ ⁠

 

2. I had to determine, as a person of faith, where I stood with God in this moment. Would I choose to believe that this God I’d devoted my life to was still good even when bad things happened? Would I choose to say, “though he slay me, still I trust in him?” Would I continue to trust the promise that all things—ALL THINGS—work for the good when I stand in my faith? I had to get to yes before I could go forward with hope and expectation.⁠ ⁠

 

3. I had to come to some level of acceptance that this is my life at the moment, and I can either use my time protesting that or I can use my time in ways that are productive by MY definition.⁠ ⁠

 

4. Which is this: productivity is giving my job, my writing, my family, my body, and my spirit the very best I can AT THAT GIVEN MOMENT. And usually, though not always, those take place one at a time.⁠ ⁠

 

These may not be the same conclusions you come to, though I suspect some universality within them.⁠ ⁠

 

But, one way or another, we have to define for ourselves what makes our lives worth living in the midst of debilitating pain and fatigue and disability—⁠ ⁠

and then we have to go about living it out as best we can,⁠ ⁠ moment by moment.⁠ ⁠ ⁠ ⁠ ⁠ ⁠ ⁠ ⁠ ⁠ ⁠

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What does living the

life you’re capable of

living mean to YOU?⁠